Lately, i keep seeing graduation pics here and there in my news feed and i can’t help but feel sad and disappointed. I thought about many things i wished i done before, and here they are :
- I wished i never failed stat. The subject that caused the domino effect in my college life.
- I wished i interacted more and get out of my shell. I experienced rejection ( worse, feeling out of place) and although i’m happy now, i’m still quite sad that i don’t have much friends compared to my high school life.
- Because of my irreg life, i didn’t have a particular group of friends, and i don’t know if i would call other friends, since i didn’t feel them, they are just a mere acquaintance.
- I wished i chose tourism over psychology, because i realized that it’s not cut out for me.
I thought that over the past 4 years, i changed for the better but i don’t feel it. Many surprising things happened lately….but it didn’t brought a spark- which was quite unexpected. I really don’t know : (
But then i will surely miss college. Yes, it made my cry, but it made me happy too. I know I’m not yet graduating and too bad I’m late for it ( I’ll graduate – i hope this October ) but thinking about ending my college life means also the end of my studying era- my youth. I hate growing up, honestly, but that’s life. I gotta keep moving.