Recovering

5 months have passed since I left my previous job at makati and I’m slowly getting up,Β  which honestly is difficult for me. Moving to a new place and meeting new people is surely not easy because you got to start all over again. The worst part is, I’m afraid that what happened to me in my previous job would happen all over again because I’m still stuck in the job that i really hate : a secretarial position.

My life since college has been difficult for me – i didn’t like my course which is psychology, my first job was a nightmare and so does my second job. Now’s my third job and i realized something – that corporate life is not really for me.

What i really want is designing or something that would involve music – a career that I could express my talents, the real me. Sadly, I can’t find a job that’s really for me because my course is tied to either as a psychiatrist or in an industrial setting. I’m really confused right now whether i would pursue studying graphic design because I’m not getting any younger, i need to be in right trackΒ  now.

I’m disappointed at how things turn out however, i realized that God is really making things happen. My first goal this 2017 was to transfer to a near workplace with a higher salary and fortunately, it happened πŸ™‚ The second goal is what i need to work out right now – to study graphic design and maybe use my designing skills here in blogging or have a part time job online. After that, my third goal is to be a graphic designer or a layout designer and that’s the time I would finally leave this stressful, robotic job.

I remembered what my dad told me after relating to me the story of my tita which currently resides in Canada. My tita had a difficult life before she and her family moved to Canada. They lived first in her husband’s home and she and his family are not in good terms because his family always depends on them, to the extent that whenever they would decline their request, they would get angry.

My dad said that if that didn’t happen, maybe she won’t think of leaving the country and settle in Canada. He added that sometimes, all those hardships that we faced in life triggers us to be a better person and to strive for a better life. I realized that maybe that’s what God is trying to say – i need to leave this kind of job because it’s not doing good for me. Maybe i need to change my motto right now. Instead of “Good things comes to those who wait”, i’ll change it to “Good things come to those who hustle.”

I’m still fighting and i know i can do this. I’ve been through many shit , how come i can’t survive this one?

If opportunity doesn’t knock, build a door.

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7 years and counting.

Just want to tell you guys that I’ve been blogging for 7 years already! Time flies really quickly and I know that this blog is a witness of the many crazy changes in my life and on how i post too πŸ™‚

Last night, i back read on my blog posts and i teared up on some parts (not kidding!) because i began to miss my teenage life a.k.a the golden years of my life. My posts back then seem hopeless, i mean i thought i would never graduate and here I am, working for almost 2 years already. I also laughed on my posts about my puppy-love crushes and I cringed in some parts because I was so cheesy back then. (ewww) haha old self y so stupid πŸ˜›

I think what makes this blog important is because almost all my memories are stored here and my past posts inspire me to continue and be hopeful of the future. I never realized that I’ve accomplished so much in life, thanks to this blog that recorded almost every happenings of my life, from daily rants to social issues, and of course unforgettable memories w/ my loved ones.

So here’s to more blogging years for me! Happy 7th, WonderCrizel πŸ™‚

 

Haz lo que te haga feliz

Awhile ago, I’ve met with my college friend of 5 years and I told her the real happenings in my work place. She also related to me her previous corporate experience, how she realized that its not really meant for her and decided to pursue her passion- multimedia arts.

I was inspired by her experience because she followed her heart, and I can see that she’s enjoying what she has right now and never regretted it. While here i am, disappointed on how everything turned out in my career, full of regrets.

I know you will think I’m immature, sensitive or what but yes, if that’s what I am then i really do. I finally realized that i don’t care right now at all and I will pursue what I really want in life- to apply in a company near our house, in a position where I could really show my strength, and study web design. My friend is right: If you don’t love what you are doing, then stop it- because it’s pointless if you continue doing it.

I’ll start submitting resumes tomorrow, I really mean it right now. I can’t stand working in my company for another year. I’m so sick of my Job, all the people around in my workplace, everything. It’s not helping me.

I’ll promise that this year, I’ll make my goal happen: to do what makes me happy. 2 years is freaking enough. I’m already done.Β 

Christmas and New Year 2016

This holiday is probably one of the best moments of my life as I’ve got to spend it with my family + my tita and grandmother and finally, after 3 long years, with my cousins! πŸ™‚

Dec 24-27: Christmas Holiday

I’m so thankful that I’ve always got to spend every Christmas with my family πŸ™‚ Tita and Mamang also came again to celebrate with us and although a simple celebration in the house, it was a memorable one.

We had Β a karaoke party last Dec 24, went to Evia for a Christmas dinner and also at Tagaytay last Dec 27 . Those 4 days really made me feel complete and blessed, Christmas is indeed the most wonderful time of the year πŸ™‚

Dec 30-Jan 2: New Year Holiday:

After 3 long years, our cousins are celebrating the New Year with us and our house again is full of happy guests! with 12 people in our house, welcoming the new year has never been so much fun πŸ™‚

Dec 30- A day at Enchanted Kingdom.

This day is memorable and also a history- its our first time to go to EK without our parents! We rode all the extreme rides and our youngest cousin finally get to ride her nightmare- Space Shuttle. It’s really more fun without ‘parental guidance’. LOL but we’re old anyway, so its reasonable πŸ˜€

Dec 31: New Year’s Eve

This is really one special New Year’s Eve- we had lots of food, a karaoke party(again), some fireworks and parlor games! It’s so much fun when our cousins are around, I’ve felt like a kid again after joining the parlor games πŸ˜€ What a good way to welcome 2017!

Jan 1: First day of 2017!

We had a last mini get together with my cousins before they leave the next day. We ate pizzas at Greenwich Star Mall and had a frappe after. It was simple, yet we had tons of fun (the “farting incident” LOOL) and I’ll surely miss them.

I’m really glad the God made my wish come true- to end 2016 with a good note and welcomed 2017 with a bang! Despite all the heartaches last 2016, I’m getting more hopeful this 2017 πŸ™‚ More holidays like this in the coming years!

Happy New Year everyone!